I haven't been able to draw for about a month or longer, I thought It maybe had to do with artblock but Its gotten to the point where even if I just do a simple doodle I cant bear to look at it and scribble it out. With this I've been also having doubt of my years of doodling and drawing in general. Just to clarify this I'm not complaining of the amount of views or ratings of my art, that is the least of my concerns.
The real concern is MYSELF, I fear that I lost the spark of doing art and lost sight of my original reason of why I wanted to do art in the first place. The temptation of me quitting on everything creative that I had in plan are heavily strong, I try resisting those thoughts by watching and observing art and animated pieces that gave me sparks in the past, sadly there quickly fading away the more I realize that I can't be competent creatively with the pieces of media that I watched over the years. And the thing is that I'm deathly afraid of quitting art and other things that are creative, I've been dreaming about these topics since I was a wee lad and other things never interested me in life. If I quit art now, what will I even do with my life?
I've shown my art to friends and strangers and they always say the same thing " don't care what other people say." or " Your art is fine." which is nice but the thing is I'm not worried about the people or what they say negatively about it. IM the person that is not satisfied with my art. Its so bad to the point where after the art piece "BOXER BIGSHOT DINGO" there was suppose to be three other artworks I was gonna post here but I deleted the artworks completely because they did not reach the expectation. I want to believe my reasoning for the deleted art pieces was my crippling confidence for getting something right that I've planned in my head.
To be honest I don't know what gonna happen for me in the future, expect nothing because most likely nothing gonna happen.
P.S there was supposed to be more writing but I got clogged up in thought.
